No one and I do mean NO one has the right to judge me for how I am grieving and moving forward with my life. There is not one person in the world who is going through exactly what I am going through so there is not one person who will ever completely understand it. I have decided to be happy. I cannot live my life wishing for something I will never get because it breaks my heart over and over. I consider myself lucky to have the love and support that I have and I consider it very fortunate that I am where I am in this lifelong process of grief. I will never stop wanting and loving Shaun. Never. This does not mean that I cannot love again and I promise you from the depth of my soul that Shaun would never want me to spend my life mourning him with my every breath.